heyo...
have a splitting headache todae...ARGH!!!..wana bang my head against the wall liao la...haix...tink is not enuff slp ba...no choice lehx...tis morning slept in the bus...until reach e interchange i oso duno...lucky i sudd wake up n jump dwn e bus...lol..if not veri VERI paiseh...last nite i fried rice..lol..my dad sae veri nice...well i used a diff way to fry it bahx...hmm...dnt knw he will come todae anotx...dun tink so ba...?...since...its once in a blue moon kinda ting...but wen i work at TM last time...he alwaes come de lehx...but duno why here jiu dnt come..its e same amnt of time to travel to here n to TM norhx...haix...duno lahx....headache!!!!how...!!!..
i cant wait for the 16th of may to come...lol..can start ordering the clothes nehx...haha...aniwaes...plannin on quitting tis job le...mayb work for the bank promoting credit card...hvnt go for the interview yetx lo..they havnt tell me wen...quite a tempting pay lo...like tt..i dun tink i'll evaa b bankrupt b4 my nxt pay arrives ba...is 6 mth contract onli...shld b no prob de lor...jeexx...
OMG !! I'm falling aslp..!!...sales hvnt enen reach $100...die lo...no business le lahx...i wanna go home..!!...TIREDX...
hmm...i'm scared...1 dae...if i cnt tske those sarsacism anymore...i dnt knw wat i'll do...breakdown...??...break-up...??...i dun tink i'm up2 it....it hurts u knw...it reali hurts...mayb i shldnt talk onli...n do sm actionx..??....he dsnt meet my parents= i dnt meet his parents...he dun come my hse= i dun go his hse....like this den fair ba....why am i alwaes givving in in these kinda things which matters so much so much...is there anytin wrng wif mi...tt dae wen we went to ECP..i had prepared to talk to him seriousli...but i bu ren xin...it didnt came out of my mouth still...i love him...but...does he...??...if he does...WHY..does he hav to put mi in such a difficult position...between he n my parents...why doesnt he tink for mi...and hav to make mi so miserable from time to time...my parents cnt even rem wat he looks like...i cnt even rem wen was e last time they saw him...i'm disappointed...jux like the movie "Cinderella Story"..waiting for him to make tt move is like waitin for rain in a drought...i dnt knw how long i can wait...we've been together for SEVEN months liaoz...n yetx...he still lidat...reali headache...ARE we REALI meant to BE...i can sacrifice everytinjux to b wif him....can he..?..hav he even thot abt all these...he tells his fren tt i am "sticky" to him...have he thot abt hw i feel..?...how would he like it if i talked bad abt him to my frenx...n that fren happens to b his fren too...how wld he feel...bad rite..??...sometimes i reali wanna talk things seriousli wif him...i dnt want the problems to drag w/o gettin solved...but...he jux tends to flare up or defend himself...he alwaes ask mi to listen to him..wen he wants to complain smtin abt mi....but why doesnt he reali listen wen its my turn...
I reali ENVY other couples....i dnt knw why....i keep feeling mine has smtin missing...i dnt tink i eva get to do wat other couples do.....or...wateva i have dreamed my relationship to b...i jux want everytin to be sweet...FULL of SURPRISES...SweeT memories...Photographs...!...
i dnt knw...it seems tt...since young...my mum taught mi to put myself in others shoe...n see things in a different point of view...n i hope...he wld too...ya...i hope...n...wish...
