Saturday, April 28, 2007
i jux wake up...!!..lol...i had a weirdest dreAm of all..i can alwaes remember it...dnt knw why...i have e same dream quite oftenli...lol....here goes...
i was at a fun fair...with some frenx.....den sudd at a chalet....then there's this announcement that saes whoever name is called.. e person can go overseas to study...lol...hmm...then...my name was called..!!!...i rushed to the place where they sae to collect my ticket....amongst the others...i saw my sec sch frenx....so we were jumping wif joy...they sae that the plane leaves the nxt dae...so we were to go home n pack...then e nxt dae...we gathered again...there's this bus who droves us smwhere...it was not e airport..!!!....it had cells...n mani ppl were in each of it...lookin haGGard n ill...hair falling off and etc...then ..we were bein locked up..!!!...they sae that they are goina do tests on us...OMG!!!....i got shocked...jiu wake up le...nitemare sia....den i went back to slp again...it was e same dream...jux that the twist in e end didnt come true...i went overseas to study...lol...how i wish this part were true....=p
anywayx...cnt tink ritex nw...so ....ya....buaix...!!
Just The Girl @
3:35 AM
Thursday, April 26, 2007
I''M BACK...!!!
lol....todae working....n...i brought my laptop to work...!!!...lol...too damn sian le...haha...i was so surprised e internet can work...e whole of junction 8 is wireless lan...lol...cool isnt it...=p...hmm...tt dae sae till where...cnt rem liaoz...i so so so so tired sia...last nite i tink slept 3 or 4hrs nia ba....i slept over last nite...hmm...dnt knw why...cnt slp...not use to it..??...lol...i not sure..but den...in e morning...wen i finali got to slp for awhile...was woken up by sm1...gotta work nehx...my eyes until nw still red red de...sian...look like sore eyes..haha...but is not..
hmm...miss him fetching mi from work...dnt knw why...jux feel it veri sweetx..lol...but...he doesnt do tt animore...but I DO...lol...haix...i find that even tho i in a relationship..i still feel empty sometimes...i dunt knw why ah...i tend to feel lonely...and wld yearn for some care, concern, love, attention...so that i wld feel that there IS somebody there...am i stoopidx or watx...u tell mi...
if horx...i were rich...pocket got a few thousand..i tink i wld open a real shop...instead of blogshop...mayb..a push cart...lol...n import all e things i like...=p...but if nvr earn...oso die die lo...i work at chocolat shop...veri sian..veri sian...but horx...e boss treat mi as if i will work long long for her...she onli has 5 staff nehx...if i quit she got 4...lol...jux nice tampines 2 bishan 2...HAHA...
hmm..sudd i realise i gettin fatter n fatter...!!!...HOW....haix..i wan diet liao...from todae horx...i dun wan eat after 5pm...lol...dnt knw if i can tahan anot..=p...sae first...if hungry...i eat apple...lol...eat all e fruits...i dun wan become like de lydia lidat...S0o big size....i wan jian fei liaox...but if go gai gai...i tink is no choice de ba...?...cnt posibli see ppl eat nia...e temptation too high ...i shou bu liao....=p...
mmm...smtimes horx...i tink...how nice if he wld give the same as i give...i dnt knw why...i'm scared...wat if 1 dae..i'm tired of it...if i bring it up...SURE quarrel de...wanna bet..haix...dnt knw why lidat...mayb he'll sae..."i nvr ask u to do tis...is u wan do de.."...i findin trouble for myself man...u knw...i read every horoscope book..in internet...ALL sae that we 2 not compatible nehx...hope we prove those books wrong ba...but...if this carries on...i oso duno hw le....dnt knw why he so scared of my family...i;m such a shy person n yet i willing to hang at his place...why cnt he do the same...he dnt even hav to see them..talk to them...i have my OWN room...i wish that he cld stand in my place for once...n not his...i wish...n..still wishing...
SHOOT..!!
gotta close shop soon....haha...
TO B CONTINUED....(part 3)...
WHAHAHA....!!!!
~~("v")..its a feeling...where one cnt explain..("v")~~
Just The Girl @
12:07 PM
Monday, April 23, 2007
YOX...!!!!
lol...am back...so long didnt update le...jeex...hmm...dnt knw why sudd cldnt slp....sian ah..!!!...now mikki slp in e centre of mi QUEEN size bed nehx...!!!!lol....bcm her bed liaoz....diaozx...but at least tonite she didn hug my leg...haha...hmm...been lookin for jobx nehx...a little tired of Chocolat World...hmm...work there for 1 yr plus lo....she dun increase my pay...lol...worst is tt i found out those newli employed get $6/hr...while i onli get $5.20...tts not fair rite....sianz...i dun wan work for her le la....nowadaes hor...i break almost nearli all e rules...lol...cnt wear sneakers...i wear...must wear apron...i dun wear...must tie up all e hair...i tie half...smtimes oso dun tie...=p...see e chocx oso sian....sm more work so long...i still can figure out how to get free stuff...lol...PAID free stuff...u knw how...customer pay for it i take lo...haha...its a secret....SHHH!!!...
Recentli..been reading a book..."Beyond The Promise"...its romance de story...its...veri touching...plus..i tink i got too involve on the story le...haha...i dnt knw why..mayb my imagination very "feng fu" ba...=p...i alwaes put myself into the story....and smtimes it can get quite out of hand...i tink..tis is the 5th or 6th time i reading tis book..n i nvr got tired of it...=p...i love the story...i would laugh, cry, feel sad as e story goes along...the LOVE the characters had for each other...was more than anitin in the world..the way the author desribe..every detail of them together..the way they made love...the way they touch...the way they talk to each other...their hugs...it made mi want all of it...lol...n i did...haha..in my imagination....but its fiction after all...anitin can happen in storyland...*sigh*...
dnt knw why...in life...the more simple tings u want ..the more diff u u get it...lol...mayb i talkin rubbish...sian...i'm tired...but..smtimes...cnt reali get to slp...n i knw the reason....its my brain...i will start tinkin of everytin...wat i want...wat i wana do...have..EVERYTING...n if the nxt dae..i had plan smtin...all the more i would be thinkin abt it...***eeekk....runing nose liaox...***...well...i'm a dreamer...alwaes dreaming...but...my dreams are not smtin tt cnt happen...they can...its just tt...the ppl involved doesnt make it happen for mie...n i cnt do it alone...i dream of many tings...lol...sorta fantasy?? haha...dnt knw...
i cld imagine..mi n him flyin to another country...just mi n him...spending valuable time together...Or...we're on a stranded island...lol...i did actuali nearli made it happen...but it was ntin near wat i said..was chalet..=p...lol...but it didn happen...lol...no $$...ahahaha...well...forget it lor...its a crazy idea...n..dreamz doesnt reali come true...but..there r mani tings i wanna do..lol...i can rem..ever since i learnt of marriage...kidx...life...sec sch daes ba...i have alwaes imagined of gettin married...lol...dnt knw y,...haha...i wld imagine...wat kinda wedding i want...use to imagine...gettin married at e beach...my FAV place...wld have a stage...n tables...n buffet..instead of hotel food...lol....then there would b a strip of ..hmm...pink carpet..??..lol...leading to the stage...den...there wld b wedding march...wif smoke along the way...hmm...mayb get a dancefloor...so ppl can join in e fun...dance all thru e nite...haha...hmm..well...if any of us can dance tt is...lol...i dun wan the normal kinda wedding...alwaes in e nite..start so late...end so late...i want...in e dae time....lol...evening...mayb ard 5 start...lol...but dun tink any1 wld turn up...haha..anyway..if its gotta b in e nite..i want candles...lighting all e way...lol...anywayx....i gotta a great imagination dnt i....=p...but dun tink...marriage for mi wnt happen anytime soon ba....but hope to b before 25...lol...if not jiu veri old le...haha...jeex...a DREAM wedding it is....=p....a dream...tts all..
i'm one..who keeps tings to myself...i feel it hard to express myself to ppl...even sm1 veri close to mi...to mi...troubles, i will keep to myself...opinion..e same...but..if you have troubles...i am willing to lend a listening ear...to listen n advice/help if i can...i dnt knw but...tt's how i learn abt tings...in life i guess...most of my friends...i guess 80%...confide in mie...even ppl thru e net...since i was in sec sch ba...frenx..would tell mi their problems...but 99% is relationship...nvr had a relationship b4..so i cldnt reali give advises...jux wld listen ba..but..i alwaes find a way to hlp my fren solve...or some consoling words...or encouragement...i've.."helped"...wit advises but...wen it comes to my ownself...i dnt seem to b able to use them...idnt knw why...lol...
that 6 mnths of my life...where i had 4 different bf...i experienced MANY things....many...i dnt wish to rem....many that hurts...but...still...memories to hold...i alwaes wish for my 1st to b my last...but...things jux isnt tis way...for now...1 step at a time ba...now..i dun dare to tink far...i bear a tinkin of..WHAT IF...??...ya...wat if tis...wat if tt...i dnt knw....wat if i die tmr...wat if we break up tmr...nobodi can reali tell e future ritex...so...i wana cherish every moment together...its weird...n...sorta got scolded for it...anywayx...
oh...i'm feeling a little tired le...
TO BE CONTINUED.......
Just The Girl @
5:12 PM
Thursday, April 12, 2007
argh...!!!....my pancake fail..!!...lol...chao ta....all black black de...sianx...haix...later wana try to bake cake lo....hmm...yesterdae...spent so much nehx....tink dun hav much $$ left....haha...i still hav to waot till nxt month 8th den get pay nehx...whoa...its a long long way....phew...last sundae ah....celebrated tings bthdae...had a BBQ at east coast....1st time i set e fire n SUCCESS...lol...altho it took quite some time...but...happi it did work...aft set fire i cook lor....lol...e food all taste nice nice...but in e end had to throw away quite a few chickenx....waste $$...lol...but nobody wan eatx...so i throw lor...den aft tt sang bthdae song....cut cake...n gave ting her present....it was a jumper mini skirt...lol...they insist whe tried it on...aft much fussing over e skirt...we sat down n slack...lol...there wasnt anytin to do....i was too tiredx to move...had stand e whole dae...marketing....setting fire...cooking...hardli sat down...but...guess wat...lol...i had a present too...it was a belated gift from e sistaxz...well...it was veri thotful of them...did wanted to drop tears...but...wen i saw e last page of e booklet...hahaha....i cldnt drop tears....laugh like hell...too bad cnt up load e picx yets...hehe...nxt time bahx...hmm...ya...
tt nitex...went his place to slp lor...hmm...well...nw...abt sex...hmm..to mi ah...its like...hmmm...smtimes...wen we're abt to hav it...n i felt like having it....but..his 1 sentence wld hit mi back..."can i hav it?"...i dnt like...lol....its like...all e atmosphere gone liaoz....den hw to hav it...sometimes horx...its not i dun let him hav it...or i dun wan...it jux tt...i dun like bein asked tt question....i like...slowli de...naturali de...hmm...dun like everytin done in 5 min....sianx....lol
tonnite goina fetch him home...jeex....dnt knw wanna bring e cake down anotx....heee....dnt knw pass anotx....
lol...
i goina bake mi cake lo...!!!
buaix....
Just The Girl @
12:55 PM
Friday, April 6, 2007
todae nehx...go "sao mu" nehx....early morning 6am mi mama wake mi....ask mi wana go anotx...tired nahz...!!!...last nite ard 2am slp sm more....sianx...since wake up le jiu go lor...we headed to KRANJI...e tomb on e mountain lehx...lol...hot like hell...sianx...wen burnin e joss paper...e fire so hot tt i feel my leh hair all burnin up...HAHA...=p...aft go kranji....jiu go YISHUN...tis time...its not on mountain top...in a temple...same lor...all e procedure...aft tt...travel all e way back to BEDOK...lol...another temple...tis time pray de is i know de...is my Ah ma norhx....ask her bao you mi in my life...let everytin go on smoothli...lol...exspecialli in some places..lol...den..finali...we head home...!!...we went out of e temple to wait for cab...sudd a couple came from behind and ask if we were waiting for cab...we sae yes...den reali sudd...they flag down a cab in front of us and went up...SHIT....stuupid ppl...finali got taxi come...den go home...ate lunch...and i went down to e saloon wif mi mum...tinkin of cutting mi fringe...lol...now...i cut le...looks tidier...anyway..was tinkin of cutting e ends tooo...so many split ends...but e aunty sae mux cut 2INCHES lehx.....2 inches....xin tong lor...so i decided not to cut yet...mayb wait longer...?...lol...i keep waitin n waitin but nvr go cut...=p...hmm...later goin down to harbour front and wait for him norhx...hmm...ya...tt's abt it...
*xiang zhe man tian xing xing de hai bian....~~
**hao xiang chui chui hai feng....~~
*ji shi neng pei wo qu kan xing xing ne...~~
**wo xi huan kao zai ni de jian bang...~~
*you zhong tian mi de gan jue...~~
smtimes horx...tink tt i very sha...wen i work...till 10pm....i'll purposely take my time to close shop...so i cld meet him at hse dwnstair...i'll take my time rather than wat i alwaes do...9.30 start closing shop...10 sharp rush to e busstop...get on e bus n quickli rush home...now...i close shop at 9.45...take my time n do tings...slowli walk to take bus...den by e time i reach home..its abt e time he reach...lol...=p...hmm...i did look for jobs tho....but i tink chocolat world's schedule fits mi most for e time bein....cux..i dnt knw wen he takes off...so..wen i wanna take off...99% can...i dnt wanna work full time...i ..reali wanna b there wenever he takes off...but...guess its impossible...as..he does hav his life too...mayb i take it too much...tinkin of wen is his off dae onli...so he can pei mi...hmm...dnt knw wat i tinkin le....i tink i'll find a full time job wen he start sch ba...jux dun wanna miss a chance to b wif him on his off dae for e time bein...haha...mayb its a stupid tinkin...i know...but den...cnt hlp it norhx...
**i'm stupid bahx..~~
Just The Girl @
5:26 PM
Wednesday, April 4, 2007
todae results are out..!!!
i got 2.1 GPA nehx....bad bad....
but at least got gradute nahx...hapi liao...
my IA pull down mi markx....lol....haix...
zi zuo zi shou mahz....
yesterdae went to mini toons...got myself a.....
TURTLE..!!
lol...can use to massage massage de...
but mi left it at his place..
=(
ah...i tmr gotta work nehx...sianx...BISHAN nehx....BORING place....can die of boredom de worx....hope time will pass quickli lor...
oh..yesterdae went to watch ninja turtles n Mr Bean..!!!
e ninja turtle veri cute..haha..exspecially " michelangelo " ...lol..duno how to spell...Mr Bean ah...hmm...funny la...but some of e parts real stupid...lol...i like e parts wen he was eating e lobster....he ate e whole shell...haha...den wen he beg for money n sang that weird weird song...like reali so sad lidat...haha...
so many more movies i wanna watch...
lol
dnt knw e job at bedok centre will employ mi anotx..lol...if they do..i hope e pay is high!..haha...ya...anywayx....
my blog shop....still *makin in process*...lol...edited sm here n sm there...hmm...mayb got more ppl joinin le bahz...ya...dnt knw yet...hmm....
Just The Girl @
8:02 PM
Monday, April 2, 2007
hmm...quite a few daes didn blog le bahx....
ntin much happen actuali...jux workin over e weekend...
todae...mi went to DYE mi hair lo....but...it wasnt reali wat i want...
no choice...nw e colour tt i hav can onli b seen under e light...weird..isnt it...
haix...
i tink its brown....smtin like brown....e auntie bluff mie de...
she gave mi a magazine cut out book to let mi choose coulour...
so after browsing...i chose 1 that looks like tis...
but mine is far from tis....sianx....
mine doesnt even look like it has colour...
my parents cldnt even tell i DYED my HAIR.....
jux nw my ex asked mi to go out wif him tmr...n i cnt...of all e daes he choose tmr...
argh....mayb go out wif him on thur or fri ba...so long didnt c him le...wonder how he is nw...
but i guess shldnt b much diff ba...he wed takin driving test worx....GOOD LUCK !!
hmmm...anyway..tmr goin out wif HIM... but...haix....
dnt knw lahx.....
got mixed feelings....i actuali hoped to go out e whole dae de....means...early early go out...
till at nite...but...i guess its far from it ba...i knw he's busy n everytin ...
but....smtimes....jux smtimes....i feel...i'm not attached...
tt's bad isnt it...
smtimes...wen reali need sm1 to b there...there isnt any...
nt such a good feeling ba...like an invisible guy...
haix...
but...i LOVE him...n..i miss him...
oh...mi n dar setting up an online shop...hopes everyting goes well...
my net fren said he'll pass e photoshop software to mi...but he didnt show up...sadx...
i reali hoped to hav tt software...
but e original is $100++....how am i to afford...
wanted to try to design my own blogskin ma...
hope e software would jux drop from e sky to mie....!!
hmm...sudd rem...last time...a guy *****...
we used to talk on e phone every single dae...every single nite...
it became a routine...lol...he was there...like a diary...watever i do every dae..
he would knw...lol...in a blink of an eye...we were talkin for many months on e phone...
but...e ting is...i nvr did c him b4...lol...n...i became to like him...n soon..he made known his feelings for him...we met up...but e feeling wasnt rite...wen in e phone n real person...i liked it wen we talked on e phone...we nvr did run out of things to talk...alwaes talkin into e wee hours...till i did fall aslp...alwaes till i wantedt o slp did we hang up...if i rem...lol...but...meeting up...i didnt hav tt feeling...e "liking" feeling...so ....well u can guess wat happen...slowli...he drifted...then i hav a bf...den he disappear...lol...i tink its like tt de...other guys disappear wen u hav bf...like u got disease or smtin...haha...but...hmm...anyway...it was sweet...
those talking on e phone....its like sm1 cared...lol...
ah...i tink i've written much todae...gotta STOP!!
lol...writing too much rubbish...
good nitex ya...
~~A GREAT DAE TOMORROW~~
Just The Girl @
11:44 PM
