Friday, March 30, 2007

dnt tink i'm tt "strong" gal i used to be
in relationships
tears are hard to control
i guess
i wanted to give him a surprise thats all
but i didn expext him to leave work early
i took a cab down to harbour front
not wanting to b late
i didnt expect him to b home alrdy
wen he msg mi
i dnt knw why
i jux cried
he called mie
but i didnt ans
i didnt want him to knw
so i lied
i told him i was meeting a fren at orchard
he sae wat for go so far
i oso duno wat to sae
he told mi faster go home
but i jux wanna walk ard get smtin to eat first
"why cnt u jux listen to mi"
tis hurts
u sae i am angry wif u
but i'm not
i feel like a fool
standing at your work place when u're not even there
and you askin mi to go home quickli
i took a cab home
cried e way
went to e park and sat there
crying
while u went to slp
there was this guy who came and sat there too
he jux sat there like mi
aft 1 or 2 hours
i got up n head home
he got up too
guess he was there to sit wif mi ba...
guess all that crying hlped mi go to slp quickli

Just The Girl @ 2:26 PM

Thursday, March 29, 2007

todae i tried baking lehx....chocolate cookie...hmm....FAIL....sian.....it doesnt reali smell like biscuit...haix....dnt knw y...i find that i reali like cookin nehx...jux tt...dun like washin up..=p...i got a response for *at-sunrice*...so happy..but...i scared e fees...ten over thousand...go where and find tt kinda money...but reali intrested ba....jeex....sianx....regret last time nvr b intern for e hotel restaurant....mayb i alrdy chef le worx....ARGH!!!!!!!!!.......my biggest wish.....

to get into e course..!!!!!!

HELP!!!!

haix...hope they hav instalments or smtin...?...jeez...need to write a 500 essay on why i wanna sign up for that course n hand up a statement of my financial ability worx....think...my chances are veri veri slim....

presenting my chocolate cookies..!!!

cutez ba....

Just The Girl @ 8:06 PM

Sunday, March 25, 2007

todae....i nvr go work worx....backache...sianx....hmm...i want to upload pis so much...but i hvnt buy the usb cable to connect my hp yo e com..sian...actuali i like takin pic...hmm...but he alwaes sae i not photogenic...haix...sae ugli...i oso dun dare to take photo wif him le...sobx...i actuali had thot of making a album of us since e dae we got together...but...haix....i nvr did get e chance...ritex....

Just The Girl @ 9:04 PM

Thursday, March 22, 2007

phew....yesterdae...i went to market lehx...wanted to buy some food to cook dinner...took my atm card den jiu go shengshiong...grabbed a basket n started my shopping...!!!lol...but horx...e ppl there make me feel like an alien sia...i wen to buy vege...den wen to look at e meat...den got tis sales guy..he keep looking at mi wif those weird eyes like i frm outer space...i quickli quickli walk to e end end there n loook at e meat...selected some...den actuali wana buy seafood de...but e guy selling e seafood oso weird weird de...

jeez...i wonder is there smtin wrong wif mie..haha...den i saw got 1 box inside got a few fishies...no water...n they gasping for air...i c le oso heart pain...then e eyes look like sayin..."hlp mi hlp mi.."...haix...but...my fav dish is fish...sori fishies...=p....

aft tt i went to e frozen food section...e ppl there oso...keep lookin at mie...haix....if i ugli jiu sae lor...dun hav to give weird weird look de mahx...i buy vege oso got wrong mehx....aft i got all my tings i go pay le lor...add up got 48 dollar lehx...bankrupt le...lol...for real tis time...

wen t home...start my cooking..!!...

hehe...excited tt baobei is gonna eat it too...i cooked a soup, onion fried eggs, fried mix vege, potato prawn, fish nuggets..hehe...mani food horx...but of all...e soup fail....cux..no more soyasauce..!!!...den no taste...so didnt dare give him eatx...=p...

aft he reach hm..i brought it up to give him....he sae not bad...haha...sweetx...(~.~)...kekex...aft tt...we watched abit of tv..i played audition...den he fell aslp...i tink ard 1 plus ba...see he slp till so soundli...

bu ren xin wake him up nehx...so jiu watch tv lor...jiu watch till 3 plus..i buay ta han...fall aslp oso...till morning...

wake up at 10 ba...lol...hmm...todae oso...i made dinner...smtin similar la...but todae soup nvr fail..kekexx...so giving him sm....=p...

hope he finds it edible....=p...hmm...its feels nice to cook for him...

how nice if can cook for him everydae..=p...but...imposible bahx...=p...well...c how it goes later lo....

n...for...

YOU KNW WHO....CONGRATS ON HAVING A BABY...!!!!

Just The Girl @ 9:57 PM

Wednesday, March 21, 2007

hmm....tired sia todae...yesterdae morning mi mum disturb mi early in e morning...sian...cnt get back to slp...jiu get up n prepare to go sch to pay sch fees lorx...dilly dally till abt 11 plus 12 ba...jiu head to sch...went to c xiao zhu..we talked...abt relationships an all....it made mi tink of all e past relationships i had...these flashback...nearli brought tears to my eyes...but...CONTROL....bu ke yi ku de...haix...den mood wasnt so good....anyway..talk talk till abt 4 plus 5 den go pay sch fees jiu head to TM to order the bthdae cake...hmm

tis is e cake..!!

nice ba...!!!

...order le go chocolat shop sit sit n talk talk wif jasmine lor...time passes so quickly...i suppose to meet him 8.30 so quickly go take mrt...but i headed to PS first...go buy e movie ticket first...den i rush dwn to harbour front n wait for him...finali...saw him...hao xiang hug him n nvr let go...hmm...but cnt...e MRT came...we took MRT to PS...he sense tt i had xin shi...but...i reali dnt knw how to start...so...i jux smiled n said:"mei you ah...na li you shi.."

dnt knw he believe anotx...but he nvr asked later on...we went to watch Music&Lyrics...it was a nice show..so touching lor..e way the guy chase back the girl...he wrote a SONG for her...i was moved....nearli cried...but...CONTROL...lol...wen e movie ended...it was ard 11 plus goina 12 le ba...wanted to take e lift dwn...but too many ppl...so decided to take e escalator...but it w2asnt moving...we were lazy so we head to e 2nd lift...it wasnt working..!!...so we went to e other side's escalator...it was working...so we went down from e 7th floor...wen reached 1st floor...he sae he wan go toilet...jiu had to go B1...e nearest toilet...den jux nice met his frenx...who work at e KFC there...they talk talk lor...went toilet lor...den they jio him go kbox...but he tell them i wldnt wan so ended up walkin diff ways...deb wen we left...i said...:"y made mi e bad guy.."

he thot for awhile n said...he reali wld like to go...as they havnt met for smtime...i said i m fine wif anytin...hiding e fact tt i hav school e nxt dae earli in e morning..so he called them..n we met them at e MRT station..head to cineileisure de kbox...they started to sing...i didn sing...cux reali cnt find e courage to voice out e lyrics...so i sat there n listen...honestli...i prefer him to sing those serious de...i dun like wen he sing play play...but...e whole nite...didnt seem to hear him seriousli sing a song properli...a little disapointed de...den smtimes..got sm songs..i wanted to sing wif him de..but his frenx hog e mic so i oso paiseh to ask for it....jiu nvr sing le...i tink wat i did tt nite e most was go toilet ba...drank too much water le...smmore his fren smoked in e room...i reali cldnt breathe n felt like vomiting...yet i dun wish to make any move tt i mind...cux...jux dun wan ba...they sang till ard 4 plus 5...i told him i had to go sch e nxt morning...had to reach sch 8.30am in e morning...i reali cannot tahan...had to shut my eyes for awhile...ard 5 plus...i lie on his shoulder n fell aslp....aft awhile i woke up...it was 6...they were leaving alrdy...we took a bus home...wen i reach hm...it was 7am...i went to lie dwn...didnt reali fall aslp...7.30..he called mi to ask mi prepare go sch..i sae ok...but then aft i put dwn..i fell aslp...woke up at 9plus...quickli bathe n rush dwn to sch lor...hmm....he changed his leave from thur to todae...i sad lor...reali...cux i alrdy plan my time nice nice for wed n thur le...a sudden change...ruined everytin...den smmore..i thot...aft sch can go his hse for awhile...but...he goin wif his frenx to orchard...said he'll meet mi atnite...even more saddened...jux nw...hetell mi he'll reach home at 10plus...equals not meeting le lor...i dnt knw y...i dun like tis kinda feeling...where...smtin is not confirmed yet u tell mi...cux i will take it as confirmed..n will b looking forward to e whole ting...but last min everytin changes...n i jux feel so alone...haix...cnt sae is his fault..i tink problem lies wif mie ba...wanting u every moment in my life...but...nw i duno hav to wait until wen u will hav a dae off again....everytin is jux screwed up...

smtimes i jux tink....:

"it seems a long time since we went out in e dae together le..."

i tink u'll agree ba...

***....jux missin u....***

~~sori for tt~~

Just The Girl @ 11:35 AM

Friday, March 16, 2007

TODAE LAST DAE OF MY IA..!!!!!

lol...so happi sia...no need to travel all e way to clementi every morning n work my self to death anymore..!!...todae work i do veri fast n veri happi..kekexx...YEAH...!!!!..trying not to tink of last nite tings...kept doin work n work n work....they all tot i siao ...Haha...hmm...baobei....DUI BU QI..i knw u angry wif mie...haix...todae..sudd tot of watching movie wif u de...but rem tt tmr u workin earli...n e rest of nxt week u workin workin workin....haix...no time to pei mi de...it seems like ages since we go out in e dae time...u knw...?...alwaes at nite at nite...like become owl le worx...at nite go out u oso tired...den alwaes head to ur place...everytime i wana spend more time wif u...it will b late le..u need to slp le..i m gettin lonely...i knw u hav to work to support ur home...but jux tis feeling inside...so lonely...lonely...n i can do ntin abt it...jux to pei he u...u work 7 daes a week...12 hrs a dae...i gotta stop tinkin abt u 7 daes a week...12 hrs a dae...n i m still figuring hw to do tt...sobx...!!...onli can meet u at nite for those few hrx...i hope...reali hope u can at least take off 1 dae a week to pei mi de...haix...but all tt i've wrote n all my thots...wun get to u...cux...u dnt even knw abt tis place...i bet u even hav no time read even if u knw...ritex...

Just The Girl @ 10:44 PM

Thursday, March 15, 2007

tt dae wen we didnt met...i ended meetin at his hse...hehe...c him den all e anger gone le worx...hmm...watched sm tv...den i fell aslp...diaox....(=.=)...3am den go home...lol....

wednsdae morning..latex againx....haha...i tink i alwaes late de lorx...hmm...was meeting him at nitex...!..yeah!!..haha..finali 6pm...but..HEAVY RAIN!!!...of all e time...had to rain at tis time...so i work OT norhx...lol...till 6.30 niax....=p...den jiu head off to VIVO CITY..!!..lol..he 9.30 fin work...so...bo bian...go walk walk lor...haha...9pm went to find him...talk talk...gave him a cup noodle..!!..kekexx...oso duno he will eat anotx...hmm...aft tt we went to eat super hotdog..quite nice la...e tingx...haha...but eat once is enuff le...=p..aft tt..we took a mrt home...he so shy lor...dun dare kiss mi de...=p...wo jiu pian pian wan to kiss him..haha..wen reach hm...jiu go his place...spent e nite there...

till tis morning...didnt go to work...came up wif sm lies so tt i can go in e aftnn n pei him longer...slept till 10.30 den i go home he go work...sadx...sobx...went to work at 2...den go hm aft work...

i called him jux nw...he sae abt his hp bill...i didn lend him my atm to let him pay..in e end he hav to fork out another $21 becux of overdue payment...he sae he not scoldin mi...but i felt it...didn knw wat to sae alrdy..he sae if i dun talk den he wana slp le...i jux told him to go slp..he said bye...

but i didn sae anytin and hung up..i knw i lidat veri bad...but jux on e verge of crying..

on e phone..he kept talkin abt e bill...i wana lend him den he sae nvm...i oso duno wana do wat le...sadx...

boohoohoo....(-.-)

...i knw he angry...

haix...i'm so tired...

=i love him..i reali do=

Just The Girl @ 10:39 PM

Tuesday, March 13, 2007

todae morning...late for work againx....sianx...money all bein deducted le...haiz...but nvr mind!!...lookin forward to after work..!!..i get to meet my baobai for a movie..we goina watch primeval...smsed him in e morning to0 remind him to c e doc todae....but in e aftnn he tell mie he woke up late..so not goin...told him to take a dae off from work to see a doc....he tell mi its not easy...but..if u r sick...where got boss insist u to work de...haix...n u call mi not understandable...it hurts...u knw...i jux worried if its smtin serious...forget it..i not ask abt anytin in future..so everytin will be fine...yet u tell mi tt i am unreasonable...i cried...is caring for u so hard...tell mi..!!...i will try not to care de....=(

haix...the whole dae didnt hav e mood for everyting....finali...fin work....i rushed off at 6 sharp..so i can reach in time to meet you..went out of the company onli...HEAVY RAIN!!...sianx..i jux didnt care...n juz ran out...but too slippery..so walked instead...dun care le...as long as can reach in time...walked abt 5min ba...was drenched...my top became transparent....so embarassed...but dun care le...reached e bus stop den i msg him..in e end...he sae he not meeting for movie le...felt so disheartened...but at least he went to see e doc..

XIAO ZHU...ZHU NI XING FU...BU YAO BU KAI XIN LE!!!!

Just The Girl @ 9:23 PM

Monday, March 12, 2007

jeez....back to blogging....hmm...ntin been goin on much ba...

having my attatchment at tis company...so tiring de..n..SIANX...lol..everydae is routine work lor..but horx...is ok la...was to be attatched there for abt 4mnths lor...now...left 4 more daes...YEAH!!...but...i keep MIAing from work...duno can graduate anotx..lol..the ppl there are actuali quite nice...but they can backstab u anytime de lorx...so...its quite scary actuali..cux they like to gossip gossip behind ur back de lor..hmm..no good no good...left 4 more daes...i trying my best not to MIA..lol...lame lor...left last 4 daes den decide tis...mi crazy de norhx...haha...

mi n baobei together goina 5 months le worx...time reali flies...lol...tis is e LONGEST relationship i hav eva been into...lol...had my first valentines with him too...but...haha...didnt celebrate de...=p...didn get to feel e sweetness of valentines norhx...sadx sadx....haha...oso first time mie bthdae got bf celebrate wif mie...but oso nvr reali consider e kind i wanted ba...lol...i jux wanted er ren shi jie...but...had a party instead...sianx lor...i tink i quite sticky towards him lor...i knw he dun like but...jux cnt hlp it...SORI nahx...smtimes...there are things that you dun like mi to do...but..i still do...for wat nehx....for sm attention bahx....sori for tt...jux..smtimes..wen i dun feel good..i jux wan attention onli...sm1 to b there...but u alwaes working de...so....there was once...wen i reali reali needed u to b there...i was feelin so so terrible...crying non stop...i msged u...but no reply...wen u finali reply...its alrdy in e evenin...u forgot to bring hp outx...at tt time...i was so sadx...haix..forget it bahx...baobei bthdae cming le worx...lol...my first time celebrating bthdae for bf worx...scardie scardie...=p..but..ur best fren wan to celeb wif u too...i oso dnt knw hw to plan...how...HOW...i wan do tis oso cnt...do tt oso cnt...sobx...Tell Mi How!!!

tmr gotta go work againx...sianx ah....hope time passes quickli so i can see mie bao bei..!!

**I LOVE YOU!!!**

Just The Girl @ 11:08 PM