Monday, April 23, 2007
YOX...!!!!
lol...am back...so long didnt update le...jeex...hmm...dnt knw why sudd cldnt slp....sian ah..!!!...now mikki slp in e centre of mi QUEEN size bed nehx...!!!!lol....bcm her bed liaoz....diaozx...but at least tonite she didn hug my leg...haha...hmm...been lookin for jobx nehx...a little tired of Chocolat World...hmm...work there for 1 yr plus lo....she dun increase my pay...lol...worst is tt i found out those newli employed get $6/hr...while i onli get $5.20...tts not fair rite....sianz...i dun wan work for her le la....nowadaes hor...i break almost nearli all e rules...lol...cnt wear sneakers...i wear...must wear apron...i dun wear...must tie up all e hair...i tie half...smtimes oso dun tie...=p...see e chocx oso sian....sm more work so long...i still can figure out how to get free stuff...lol...PAID free stuff...u knw how...customer pay for it i take lo...haha...its a secret....SHHH!!!...
Recentli..been reading a book..."Beyond The Promise"...its romance de story...its...veri touching...plus..i tink i got too involve on the story le...haha...i dnt knw why..mayb my imagination very "feng fu" ba...=p...i alwaes put myself into the story....and smtimes it can get quite out of hand...i tink..tis is the 5th or 6th time i reading tis book..n i nvr got tired of it...=p...i love the story...i would laugh, cry, feel sad as e story goes along...the LOVE the characters had for each other...was more than anitin in the world..the way the author desribe..every detail of them together..the way they made love...the way they touch...the way they talk to each other...their hugs...it made mi want all of it...lol...n i did...haha..in my imagination....but its fiction after all...anitin can happen in storyland...*sigh*...
dnt knw why...in life...the more simple tings u want ..the more diff u u get it...lol...mayb i talkin rubbish...sian...i'm tired...but..smtimes...cnt reali get to slp...n i knw the reason....its my brain...i will start tinkin of everytin...wat i want...wat i wana do...have..EVERYTING...n if the nxt dae..i had plan smtin...all the more i would be thinkin abt it...***eeekk....runing nose liaox...***...well...i'm a dreamer...alwaes dreaming...but...my dreams are not smtin tt cnt happen...they can...its just tt...the ppl involved doesnt make it happen for mie...n i cnt do it alone...i dream of many tings...lol...sorta fantasy?? haha...dnt knw...
i cld imagine..mi n him flyin to another country...just mi n him...spending valuable time together...Or...we're on a stranded island...lol...i did actuali nearli made it happen...but it was ntin near wat i said..was chalet..=p...lol...but it didn happen...lol...no $$...ahahaha...well...forget it lor...its a crazy idea...n..dreamz doesnt reali come true...but..there r mani tings i wanna do..lol...i can rem..ever since i learnt of marriage...kidx...life...sec sch daes ba...i have alwaes imagined of gettin married...lol...dnt knw y,...haha...i wld imagine...wat kinda wedding i want...use to imagine...gettin married at e beach...my FAV place...wld have a stage...n tables...n buffet..instead of hotel food...lol....then there would b a strip of ..hmm...pink carpet..??..lol...leading to the stage...den...there wld b wedding march...wif smoke along the way...hmm...mayb get a dancefloor...so ppl can join in e fun...dance all thru e nite...haha...hmm..well...if any of us can dance tt is...lol...i dun wan the normal kinda wedding...alwaes in e nite..start so late...end so late...i want...in e dae time....lol...evening...mayb ard 5 start...lol...but dun tink any1 wld turn up...haha..anyway..if its gotta b in e nite..i want candles...lighting all e way...lol...anywayx....i gotta a great imagination dnt i....=p...but dun tink...marriage for mi wnt happen anytime soon ba....but hope to b before 25...lol...if not jiu veri old le...haha...jeex...a DREAM wedding it is....=p....a dream...tts all..
i'm one..who keeps tings to myself...i feel it hard to express myself to ppl...even sm1 veri close to mi...to mi...troubles, i will keep to myself...opinion..e same...but..if you have troubles...i am willing to lend a listening ear...to listen n advice/help if i can...i dnt knw but...tt's how i learn abt tings...in life i guess...most of my friends...i guess 80%...confide in mie...even ppl thru e net...since i was in sec sch ba...frenx..would tell mi their problems...but 99% is relationship...nvr had a relationship b4..so i cldnt reali give advises...jux wld listen ba..but..i alwaes find a way to hlp my fren solve...or some consoling words...or encouragement...i've.."helped"...wit advises but...wen it comes to my ownself...i dnt seem to b able to use them...idnt knw why...lol...
that 6 mnths of my life...where i had 4 different bf...i experienced MANY things....many...i dnt wish to rem....many that hurts...but...still...memories to hold...i alwaes wish for my 1st to b my last...but...things jux isnt tis way...for now...1 step at a time ba...now..i dun dare to tink far...i bear a tinkin of..WHAT IF...??...ya...wat if tis...wat if tt...i dnt knw....wat if i die tmr...wat if we break up tmr...nobodi can reali tell e future ritex...so...i wana cherish every moment together...its weird...n...sorta got scolded for it...anywayx...
oh...i'm feeling a little tired le...
TO BE CONTINUED.......
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